Although I won't name them--these women have proved beyond a shadow of a doubt--they love me and care about me and their gifts truly show me how much. I have been on Food Stamps for a few months now and although it is great to know I will not starve to death--it's sad because I can work--I just can't find a job--and can't do my Organizing business full time because I don't have a car that is dependable.

Even as I write this, I'm scared that my car will die--and I don't even have AAA---Im just glad I have car insurance.

So, I do my own thing, and sell my mothers stuff on ebay, organize clients (when they don't cancel) and try to keep my head above water...and I'm doing it. What I'm not doing is paying any of my bills--since last July when my car died and I couldn't afford to have it fixed. (It needs a new transmition) but I still drive it around New Britain...and sometimes I even go as far as WH.

But, my friends have been there for me. The other ones have said to me when I called up so sad wanting to kill myself--one of them said: I could say Do IT--but I wont. Why would I want to be friends with these people--when I have friends that truly are wonderful to me.

So, let this be a lesson: Take care of yourself first, then take care of everyone else. I put everyone else first---and the people I put first, now place me on the list of last. Oh well--Live and Learn!